When Books Make You Feel Insecure About Your Writing

Sometimes you read a book so bad it improves your confidence. If this can get published, than surely I can one day too? While bad books are awful to read as readers, they’re great for your confidence as a writer.

But sometimes you read a book that’s so good that it makes you question everything about your writing. Is my WIP this well written? Are my characters this thought out? Are the messages I’m trying to convey clear? Is it as powerful? As fun to read?

As a reader I love good books, as a writer?

This is the second post in a row I used this gif can you tell I love it

I just finished an amazing book, one of the best ones in a while since I’ve read some mediocre books lately. And suddenly I found myself panicking and thinking about my writing. This doesn’t happen often, actually. I’ve read tons of great books that make me wish I was just as talented, but made me panic? Anxious?

That’s not to say that this book (What’s a Girl Gotta Do by Holly Bourne) is better than any other book I’ve read. My top two books of this year (and among the best I’ve ever read) are still Queens of Geek and The Hate U Give and they didn’t have this effect on me. So…

Me @ this wonderful book

Honestly I just came here to have a good time (which I did!!) and feel so attacked right now*

* I don’t care that this meme is old SO AM I KIDS**
** If I’m acting like this at 20 what will I be like in a couple of years I feel a midlife crisis coming up at like,, 21

Maybe it’s because when I read Queens of Geek and The Hate U Give I wasn’t actively writing and not really thinking about my WIP, which is something I have been doing a lot lately. Maybe it’s because I’ve been feeling incredibly insecure lately. I think it’s becoming pretty clear to you guys that I HAVE NO IDEA WHY THIS IS HAPPENING and I’m basically just writing this post to get out all my feelings and share my insecurities which I’m sure a lot of you share. Right??

I’m sure a lot of us are incredibly insecure and anxious about our writing. Sometimes a good book can either inspire you, or make you feel worse. I guess in a way What’s a Girl Gotta Do did both. Because I want to write, and do better. But I also want to crawl in a corner and cry

Basically I want to pull a Tamaki

Of course crawling in a corner or your bed is not going to do anything. What is going to do anything is learn from the amazing books out there, write a lot (*insert cliche PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT KIDS*) and just,, try to remember why you’re writing in the first place, something I think a lot of us often forget.

Of course we all write for different reasons, some similar, some not. But I doubt any of us started to write to feel insecure. So let’s all stop being a Tamaki and… be a Haruhi instead?* Of course she doesn’t write, but she gets shit done. And we need to get shit done kids*****. So get out of that corner, bed, hole, wherever you’ve been hiding from your writing and get to work. Which is easier said than done, I know, but we should at least try k- nope I’m stopping myself no more calling you guys kids. This is becoming a habit and I need to stop.

Me @ Me

* All of you who are not familiar with Ouran High School Host Club** are probably a bit lost right now and for that I’m sorry but I love Ouran and I’m going with this metaphor here
** Please read Ouran High School Host Club. The anime is amazing too but the manga is better. Treat yourself kids***
*** I need to stop calling you all kids I’m basically still a kid myself even though I’ve technically been an adult for two years****
**** I’ve been a WHAT
****** A while ago I helped with a kids workshop at the museum and they all used the formal you  (this is a thing in Dutch) while speaking to me and I FELT OLD

Anyway, in all seriousness: insecurities will get to you, but if we give in to them we won’t change anything. We won’t improve and we won’t be able to accomplish our dreams, whether that’s to get published or something else.

Wow would you look at that! I didn’t think I’d actually end up giving you guys advice? I just thought this would be me ranting, crying and crying some more for help.

Has this happened to you? Any helpful tips on what to do when your insecurities get to you, whether it’s because you read a good book or something else? Let me know in the comments!