The Weekly Hufflepuff #68 // My Mental Health is Currently That Gif Of Captain Holt Saying ‘Everything is Garbage’

How is May almost over already what is this sorcery what even is time

I finished Anger is a Gift and I’m dead. So so intense, but so so good guys. Please pick it up (it’s out already because I’m slooow but hopefully I’ll have my review up this Thursday). I pretty much immediately started All of This is True because it’s coming out this week. I’m definitely getting my review for this one up after the release date as well but oh wellΒ πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™€οΈΒ Can’t be helped. I’m not really sure how I feel about this one yet? It’s intriguiging but also a bit underwhelming, mostly because of the writing which I’m not really impressed with. But we’ll see!

Well this week was terrible! My anxiety has been through the roof and today I’m still not doing so great. I can’t really talk about what happened, but something triggering happened this week that honestly made me feel like I took SUCH a step backwards when it comes to my mental health and now I’m just,, really struggling.

That said, it wasn’tΒ entirely garbage, as I went to the Moco Museum with my mom yesterday which was fun and I also had to work on Friday evening, which was a welcome distraction. But my anxiety won’t really,, go away. I mean, it never truly goes away, but it’s been very present this week no matter what I do or what happens.

Fingers crossed that this week will be better

Oh but on a lighter note, I really love my new design and am so so happy I decided to change it already after all! I had been sick of my old design for so long now, but I had trouble finding a theme that I really liked. I don’t know why the current theme didn’t catch my attention earlier? Oh well I’m using it now and I’m happy with it

Two posts, which I’m honestly happy with! I used to post three times a week plus a weekly wrap up, but that’s just not do-able for me right now, so I changed my schedule to twice a week (plus a possible wrap up, depending on how I’m feeling on Sunday) and look! I made it!

πŸ’›Β I reviewed Over Raging Tides, a fun female pirates book
πŸ’›Β I talked about books I apparently loved according to Goodreads but I don’t remember them

πŸ’›Β Julianna @ Paper Blots talks about her writing in the Rising Author Tag
πŸ’›Β She also talks about some tired and overused discussion topics
πŸ’›Β Elizabeth @ Redgal Musings did my Your WIP in Gifs tag (Irish Folk retelling of The Little Mermaid)
πŸ’›Β And so did Savannah @ The Book Prophet (#OwnVoices Native American rep)
πŸ’›Β Vivian @ Writing With Style talks about writers influenced her the most
πŸ’›Β The Orangutan Librarian gives some great writing advice
πŸ’›Β Annie @ Blossoms and Bullet Journals shares 7 reasons why she loved Summer of Salt
πŸ’›Β Marie @ Drizzle and Hurricane Books talks about her WIP in the Milestone Writing Tag
πŸ’›Β Farah @ Smiling Dreamer is back!
πŸ’›Β Chiara @ Delicate Eternity shares 5 reasons why you should watch When Marnie Was There
πŸ’›Β Olivia @ Purely Olivia shares 5 reasons why she still reads and loves middle grade fiction
πŸ’›Β Cait @ Paper Fury talks aboutΒ her favourite and worst things about being an author

Despite my struggles with my mental health I’ve actually been kinda throwing myself into blogging?? Why can’t I do that when my mental health is better adlgkfsj I’m actually kinda keeping up with the blogs in my wordpress and bloglovin feed and even trying to branch out and find other posts to read. I’ve actually kinda been neglecting school, though also not really because I DO feel like I’m kinda keeping up with it, but I’m just used to giving it my all, putting all my time into it, working ahead etc. so now it just feels weird?? My anxiety is of course not helping because it keeps telling me that I’m behind!! And I should work on school!! Or I’m going to fail!! Which is ridiculous because I know I probably won’t (did you notice the ‘probably’ because I did sdkgjh) but… Ugh

me @ my anxiety

I just can’t wait for school to be over for the year tbhΒ even though that means I’ll have all the time worry about next year and internships and freelance work and then graduating hahaha

How are you guys? Hopefully doing better than me, if not sending you lots of hugs. Read anything good? Find anything good to watch now that B99 is on hiatus? Let me know in the comments!

The Weekly Hufflepuff #63 | I Am Eeyore

Good news: Didn’t suffer from a blogging slump this week!

Bad news: I did suffer from my mental health and my period rip

Actually I’ve been putting off this post the entire day because I’m just not feeling good mentally, but I talked to my friend for a bit just now and am feeling slightly better, so let’s wrap this week up

I started What’s a Girl Gotta Do? by Holly Bourne before going to sleep and finished it the next day immediately. I just HAD to finish it before doing anything else. I’m not one of those people who can read until the early mornings. I’ve never tried, because eventually I give in and go to sleep, but I don’t handle lack of sleep well so I’m not planning on trying. Anyway, What’s a Girl Gotta Do? is PHENOMENAL and I can’t wait to scream about it in your faces review it.

Friday on the bus I started Take Me With You by Andrea Gibson and lemme tell you: THAT WAS A MISTAKE. I almost cried on the bus. Then I almost cried at the bus stop. I finished it today in the privacy of my own house and boy was I a crying mess. I immediately reread it again and I know I will reread it again soon. It’s incredibly moving, powerful and beautiful and again, can’t wait to review it.

I also read DC Bombshells #60. 40 more issues to go before I can go on to Bombshells United. This is honestly one of my favourite comics but it’s taking me forever to read it? Once I’m finally caught up a bit I’ll write a post about it.

This morning I woke up feeling in the mood for Harry Potter, so I started to reread Goblet of Fire. I’ve been meaning to reread it for quite some time now as I started to reread the series last year, but other books just got in the way.

I wanted to go to museums this week but the weather has been terrible and life got in the way so unfortunately it didn’t happen. I’m hoping to go visit some museums soon, since some exhibitions will close while I’m in Manchester so I really need to go before I leave.

WeΒ (Blikopeners – a group of teens/young people (you’re a teen when you start) who work at the Stedelijk Museum Amsterdam) wrote our own audiotour, so on Friday we recorded it which was a lot of fun. It felt so professional haha

Yesterday my mom and I went shopping, since we still needed to buy presents for Sinterklaas, which is a Dutch holiday. I also treated myself to this:

IT’S AN EEYORE BLANKET AND IT’S THE BEST THING I EVER BOUGHT IT EVEN HAS A TAIL IT’S SO COMFY AND WARM AND SOFT

Here’s a picture of my grandpa wearing it. He came over for dinner yesterday. He told us that the other day a guy at his retirement home whom he really doesn’t like walked past him, and then he (my grandpa) gave him the middle finger??

My mom: why??
My grandpa: because I don’t like him 😀 and he doesn’t get it 😀 he still doesn’t 😀

My grandpa has that old people mentallity where they don’t care anymore and just do what they want. Honestly part of me wishes I could’ve had that mentallity last term when people didn’t do their work lmao.

So those were the highlights.* Like I said before, I’ve been struggling with my period and mental health, but I’ve continued to talk to my friend while writing this post and it is making me feel a bit better. My mental health is always worse during my period so hopefully it will both be over soon.

* My grandfather coming over was a highlight, not him giving a man the finger

I almost forgot that I actually wrote this week! I was supposed to go out with a friend, but unfortunately she had to cancel because of school. So I spent the day blogging and writing. Not as much writing as I would’ve liked, but I always have trouble writing while on my period. Either I’m in too much pain or I just can’t concentrate.

Anyway, recently I’ve been struggling a lot with my beginning. I realised that I didn’t like it at all, so now I started to rewrite it. So yep, I’ve already started to rewrite my second draft lol*

* I hadn’t gotten that far yet anyway so it’s okay

I’m MUCH happier with it now though, so it was worth it. Hopefully I’ll feel like writing more next week.

πŸ’›Β I talked about when reading good books make you feel insecure about your writing
πŸ’›Β I wrapped up November, meaning I had a crisis about 2017 almost being over and time going by so fast like every year
πŸ’›Β I reviewed Paintbrush and boy I did not like it. Apart from flat characters and a borderline unhealthy relationship, it also had girls shaming other girls

πŸ’› Cait @ Paper Fury talked about how her writing habits have changed in 2017Β 
πŸ’› Laura @ The Book Corps wrote an open letter to Goodreads and Netgalley in regard to their recent changes in their policies when it comes to international bloggers
πŸ’› Elm @ Just Call Me Elm Or Something shared her musings while she was on a train
πŸ’› Marie @ Drizzle and Hurricane Books is celebrating 3 years of blogging – can you believe she’s only been doing this for three years??
πŸ’› She also talked about the fear of editing her WIP and some character aesthetics
πŸ’› Em @ Yellow’s the Word shared 18 memories from 18 yearsΒ 
πŸ’› Birdie Bookworm made great aesthetics for The Book Aesthetics TagΒ 
πŸ’› Sarah @ Written Word Worlds talks about how some of her favourite authors wrote some of her least favourite books
πŸ’› Balie @ Nerd in New York talks about types of bookworms
πŸ’› Kat @ Life and Other Disasters did the All Hallows Write Tag
πŸ’› Hannah @ Mortal Reader talks about lies book bloggers tell
πŸ’› Victoria @ Doodles and Scraps shares some cute photos
πŸ’› May @ Forever and Everly talks about good representation concerning diversity in YA: better none or forced/wrong?
πŸ’› The Awkward Book Blogger talked about what jobs the characters of The Lunar Chronicles would have in real life
πŸ’› Holly @ Nut Free Nerd talked about her trip to Brighton
πŸ’› Dazzling Dreamer talked about her trip to Dubai

Hope you’re all doing well and had a good week! What were some of your highlights? Any amazing blog posts you think I should read? Did you write? Do you love Eeyore? OH AND DID YOU WATCH THE LOVE SIMON TRAILER BECAUSE I WAS ALREADY IMPATIENT FOR THE ENTIRE MOVIE AND NOW I NEED TO STEAL A TARDIS BRB