The Monthly Hufflepuff December and January // Imagine A Catchy Title Please I Have No Inspiration

So I never got around to wrapping up December, and as January came to a close I just decided to wrap it up together with January. At least now I’m all caught up! This might get a bit long and for that I apologise, but I feel so much better knowing I’m not behind now

December and January were pretty okay reading months! I read quite a bit, especially considering how exhausted I am and most of them I enjoyed! I don’t remember much about my December reads, but I shall do my best

🐝 December 🐝

💛 From Twinkle With Love by Sandhya Menon ⭐⭐⭐ – This one was okay? I don’t remember much, except being a bit frustrated with the main character. She was so obsessed with popularity and a lot of her thoughts were about that? At some point I get it Twinkle, you don’t have to keep repeating yourself. It was interesting to see how she actually got a LOT worse before the actual growth happened, but I don’t think it was explored enough and the growth felt a bit rushed. Nonetheless it was a cute and fun read, and I do recommend it!

💛 Thunderhead (Arc of a Scythe #2) by Neal Shusterman ⭐⭐⭐ – So for me this was definitely a case of second book syndrome. I had trouble putting down the first one because I just had to know what would happen next, but I actually skimmed parts of this one. It also didn’t help that it was so long? Also I’m still not sold on the romance #sorrynotsorry It feels so forced to me and that they only get together because they’re a boy and a girl. But there are some fantastic plot twists that kept me on my toes and the cliffhanger left me wanting more, so I will read the next one

💛 Crazy Rich Asians by Kevin Kwan ⭐⭐⭐ – A fun read, but I personally prefer the movie. The writing wasn’t that great and there were a lot of characters to keep track of, some of them disappearing for a long time before they suddenly popped up again and by then my Swiss cheese brain had already forgotten about them.

💛 Starry Eyes by Jenn Bennett ⭐⭐⭐⭐ – This is going to sound odd since it’s a four-star rating but, I’m a bit disappointed? Thing is I was way too hyped to read this since I loved Bennett’s Alex, Approximately, even being one of my favourite reads of 2018. I just missed the spark and the meaning of that one, but nonetheless it was a fun, refreshing read and can Lennon’s moms adopt me??

💛 Summer Bird Blue by Akemi Dawn Bowman ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ – I already talked about this one in my favourite books of 2018 post but hey let’s gush some more! Firstly I forgot to mention in that post that Rumi realises throughout the book that she’s aroace and the conversation she has about this with one of her friends is so beautiful and heartwarming. The cast is incredibly diverse (all of them POC, I think most of them biracial if I remember correctly? And some other LGBTQ+ rep too) and it feels so realistic how Rumi slowly gets to know them and lets them into her life. I also loved how Rumi found solace in her elderly neighbour and how he taught her how to deal with her grief. If you want to know more about how I felt I recommend reading my favourite books post I linked earlier

💛 Forever Geek Girl (Geek Girl #6) by Holly Smale ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ – Oh what a bittersweet ending to such a comforting, fun, heartwarming series. While I’m sad that Geek Girl has come to an end as it meant so much to me last year while in Manchester, I’m very satisfied with the way it ended. Harriet has come a long way since we first met her and I couldn’t be more proud.

💛 American Panda by Gloria Chao ⭐⭐⭐ – Uhhhhh I don’t really remember much? Except that the beginning was a bit messy and I was a bit confused with the way chapters transitioned (I think?? don’t quote my Swiss cheese brain on this) and I wasn’t too fond of the writing style (don’t ask me why I don’t remember) but it was a cute read!

🐝 January 🐝

💛 The School for Good and Evil #1 – #3 by Soman Chainani (reread) ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ – Been meaning to reread this trilogy for a very long time now, especially when I got Quest for Glory last year because it’s been years since I read this and I wanted to actually remember things when reading the new one. Rereading was SUCH a blast. I knew how much I loved my girls but I had kinda forgotten how much? I’d die for Agatha and Sophie, their growth and their love for each other. Also for my favourite coven of witches, my dumbass disaster bi* royal son and of course Hort. I reviewed the first one once upon a time but hahaha I ain’t linking to that if you really want to read it I’m sure you can find it but boy oh boy do I find it cringey. I’m planning on writing a post on the series sometime soon (possibly around the time the fifth one comes out?) but we’ll see

* mostly a headcanon, he does almost kiss what he thinks is a boy but it’s never explored apart from that so don’t get your hopes up too much

💛 Quest for Glory (The School for Good and Evil #4) by Soman Chainani ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ – While I love the original trilogy, I was a bit worried going in, since back when The Last Ever After came out I declared it a perfect ending, and upon rereading I still agreed with that. I was especially worried if Sophie’s character development would be undone but thankfully that wasn’t the case. I loved reading about my kids again and meeting new kids. Also?? Are Heather and Anadil?? Dating?? Soman please confirm that my lesbian witches are canon lesbian witches and in love with each other please

Despite having guessed some of the bigger plot twists, it was still hard to put down and I couldn’t wait what would happen next. I’m so glad I don’t have to wait that long until book five haha

💛 We Are Here To Stay by Susan Kuklin ⭐⭐⭐ – To quote my review on Goodreads because I’m lazyWe Are Here To Stay is emotional, gripping and a very important read that should be mandatory reading for everyone. This book could open so many eyes and make people more sympathetic. The writing itself didn’t blow me away, but in this case that didn’t matter. It took me a while to read, but that’s because of the heavy subject matter and my mindset right now, thus why it was sometimes difficult to pick it up again. Definitely not the book’s fault!

💛 The Goose Girl by Shannon Hale ⭐ – Many years ago I read Hale’s Princess Academy and fell in love, thus I told myself I’d read all of her books. Over the years I kinda lost interest and that never happened, but when I saw The Goose Girl in my library’s ebook catalogue I decided to give it a go. What did I have to lose? My time, apparently, as I was bored to tears. I skimmed most of it instead of just dropping it since I was curious to see the ending, but

I’m?? So disappointed?? I was a bit worried I might not end up loving it since I was pretty young when I read Princess Academy, but I did not expect this. It was such a slow read, the main character felt flat, there were so many characters to keep track of that I did not care for… Yeah, not a fan

💛 The War Blog by Glen Sobey  – WELP SO THIS ONE WAS A MESS. The War Blog claims to be feminist and take on rape culture but um yeah no. I don’t even know where to start so if you want to know more read my review. Also if you want some recs of books that actually ARE feminist and/or take on rape culture, I included some in the review

COMICS: Young Justice Outsiders #1 and #2

Oh boy what did I do these past two months? If you’re new here or haven’t been here in a while (hi!) you probably don’t know this, but last month I realised I had a burn-out and that I wasn’t doing so well. I thus decided to take a break from school and just try to get some rest. So that’s what I’ve been doing. Apart from working a few times a week to keep my mind off of things and to combat the restless feeling I’ve been struggling with, I’ve mostly been reading (both books and webtoons), playing video games and watching things on Netflix (it’s been a very long time since I wrote a post on tv shows I’m watching, should I do one again?), but I have done some other stuff too! So here’s a list of some highlights:

💛 My best friend and I went to an indoor trampoline park and it was so much fun. 10/10 would recommend but definitely try to go on a day where kids are at school. We were there on a Friday afternoon wgjdfg At first we felt a bit awkward and old but?? who cares??

💛 My mom actually beat me a few times at Mario Kart???? What sorcery is this????

💛 Sometime last year Duolingo added Indonesian and while I immediately started the course since I’ve been waiting forever I was so exhausted before with everything that I had going on, that I was very inconsistent. I’m really working at it now and can speak and understand it a little bit, which is really cool! I may not know any of my Indonesian relatives because yay colonialism but it still feels like I’m getting a bit closer to my heritage

💛 I got a new bathrobe!! Yes this is a highlight as it’s very cute, soft and sdfjbghd so warm I’m just so happy with it as it’s been so cold. The hood is Winnie the Pooh’s head and the pockets look like honey jars.

💛 My mom and I went to the Hortus Botanicus, a botanical garden, which had a special event called ‘Hortus by Night’, which meant the garden was lit up with pretty lights and there was a campfire where you could get some warm drinks. It was really nice and definitely recommend going if they do this again next Winter!

💛 We had a Christmas party at work and I actually went?? And I had fun and didn’t feel awkward the entire night?? I mean there were parts where I felt awkward and a bit uncomfortable but still! Progress! I’m very grateful that there are quite a few colleagues that I like and feel comfortable with, or I definitely wouldn’t have considered going and come up with a lame excuse sdngdkjs

Mostly I’ve been thinking about my WIP, reading about writing, pinning on Pinterest… It still counts right? I’ve had some important realisations about things I need to fix, came up with some great new plot points and created two new kids for the sequel* and I can’t wait for you to meet them?? I’m still thinking about what kind of post I could introduce them in. I’ve also written a few scenes for this sequel** that have been on my mind and needed to get off my chest, so yay I wrote something!

* Help I’ve spent too much time thinking about this sequel asjsdgknj
** Like I said h e l p

🐝 The Writing Hufflepuff 🐝

💛 I talked about what I’d been up to since the Summer 
💛 I explained why I had kinda gone on another hiatus (spoiler it’s the burn-out)
💛 I discussed the books I read in August, September, October and November
💛 I reviewed The Enchanted Sonata, a cute retelling of The Nutcracker and The Pied Piper
💛 I talked about my favourite books of 20Gayteen
💛 Which didn’t fit in one post so here’s part two
💛 I reviewed The War Blog which pretends it’s feminist but it’s really not

📷 Aesthetically Dreaming 📷

Remember my other blog? Yeah I’m very inconsistent when it comes to that one! (rip) Managing two blogs was already hard* but with this burn-out? Um yeah not going so well. I posted once (1) which I guess is already an achievement considering how little I post on there. I decided to rewrite my old Orlando travel posts from this blog on there, because yikes are they cringey to read and I want to slowly move all my travel posts to that blog. I won’t delete my old travel posts because I don’t want to lose your comments, but I might make them private.

* It’s about travel, art and photography!
** Seriously what was I thinking

📸 Orlando Part I // The Wizarding World

What have you been up to this month? Favourite reads? Have you ever been to an indoor trampoline park? How’s your writing going? Let me know in the comments!

My WIP As Incorrect Quotes And Memes // What Do You Mean I Could Use This Time To Write Instead THIS IS A LOT MORE FUN AND LESS STRESSFUL OK

As I’m pretty close to finishing my current WIP, what better way to spend my time than making a ‘incorrect quotes’ post? ‘Actually finishing the thing’, you say? Pff don’t be silly!

Also I guess you can say there are kind of spoilers in here, especially for the main romance but? 1) honestly the main romance is probably obvious for the reader once you start the book 2) who knows if this ever even gets published? 3) if it DOES get published who will remember this post 4) I wanted to include these quotes/memes ok pls let me

OH! If you’re wondering where some of these are coming from… I mean you could ask but there’s a 9/10 chance I have no idea as I just looked at tumblr and the like and they often don’t cite a source so sorry sdkj I only know the John Mulaney and the memes (though to be fair maybe the ones I don’t know are memes too?? who knows) But if you really want to know I’m sure that if you google it you’ll find it? That’s how I found out lots of times

Yong-sun An is worried about a lot of things, but at the top of his list? The future. Worried his anxiety will get in the way of everything he does, he has no clue what he’ll do after graduation. If he even graduates. Because that’s another thing he worries about. Not that his grades are bad, far from it, but one time it’s bound to go wrong, right?

Meanwhile, his not-best friend (except he is his best friend) Drew suddenly starts to act weird. Yong-sun has no idea how to help, but he has a feeling that it has to do with the mysterious text messages Drew has been getting.

Drew: looking back, I have no regrets.

Yong-sun: You should.

Yong-sun: I would like to propose…

Drew: *eyes widens*

Yong-sun: …an idea.

Drew: *disappointed* oh.

Someone: are you nervous?

Yong-sun and Hye-su: About what? But yeah.

Hye-su: I have edge.

Reyna: you really don’t. You are literally the most wide eyed person I ever seen, you have the face of a lamb.

Drew: I like you

Yong-sun: Unrealistic. Unbelievable. Lies. False.

Reyna: I am very small, and I have no money.

Reyna: so you can imagine the kind of stress I’m under.

Hye-su is also very small but she knows how to save money, meanwhile Reyna:

Drew: well, I guess you could say that “I’ve fallen for you”

Yong-sun: you just fell down seven flights of stairs, how are you even alive-

Reyna: if you had ten chocolate cookies and someone takes half of them away, what will they have?

Drew: a broken hand.

Drew: Yong-sun is on holiday with his parents in Seoul so while he’s gone I’m gonna cut the sleeves off of all my shirts

Hye-su: why???

Drew: he’s pretty much 85% of my impulse control

Yong-sun’s dad: I’m gonna do it.

Yong-sun: no please.

Yong-sun’s dad: I’m- I’m gonna.

Yong-sun: DAD

Yong-sun’s dad:

Yong-sun:

Yong-sun’s dad: YEET.

basically the popcorn scene if Yong-sun’s mom hadn’t woken up

Reyna: oh so when crows remember people who wronged them and hold grudges, it’s “intelligent” and “really cool”.

Reyna: but when I do it I’m “petty” and “need to let it go.”

Reyna: how’s the most beautiful person in the world doing today?

Hye-su: I don’t know how are yo-

Drew: *from across the room* I’M DOING GREAT THANKS.

Drew: I ain’t talking.

Reyna: we have ways of making people talk *cuts a piece of cake*

Drew: can I have some?

Reyna: cake is for talkers.


Drew: When have I done anything rash or irresponsible?

Yong-sun: I keep a list. it’s alphabetised.

Yong-sun: are you flirting with me?

Drew: have been for the past year thanks for noticing

basically THE MEME that sums up the main romance dsnjbgh

Yes I made my own meme because I’m extra like that

Drew: *about the Colosseum* it’s kind of underwhelming :/

Hye-su: 

Hye-su: time to die

* not an incorrect quote, Drew literally says that and this is basically Hye-su’s face I know this is technically ‘polite cat’ but honestly it also looks like its screaming on the inside??

There’s a good chance I might do a part two at some point and there’s DEFINITELY a John Mulaney-themed one on the way, but this is it for now before I get carried away dsjbg I just really love incorrect quotes ok?

Anyway I hope this was a fun way for you to get to know my characters a little better? Also I’m honestly thinking of turning this into a tag? So if you want to do this consider yourself tagged. The rules are very simple:

💛 Thank the person who tagged you
💛 Credit the creator of this tag and link back to this post so I can get to know your characters better + IT’S FUN I LOVE INCORRECT QUOTES SO MUCH
💛 Use already existing quotes/memes/whatever or make your own memes like I did (using… already existing memes… but still)

Want to know more about my WIP?

💛 Introducing My Characters
💛 Sharing 7 lines from the WIP
💛 Snippets: How To Flirt 101 by Andrew Lewis and Yong-sun is a Blue Cow
💛 All Hallows Write Tag 
💛 Winter Is Here Write Tag
💛 Your WIP in Gifs Tag
💛 Let’s Celebrate Winning Camp NaNo With Some Snippets! // Part I
💛 More Snippets or More Like Yong-sun’s Dad Appreciation’s Post // Part II

Do you ever look at quotes or memes and think ‘hey, that’s my character/wip!’? Do you think this should be a tag? Would you do it? Oh and what’s your favourite meme? Let me know in the comments!

More Snippets or More Like Yong-sun’s Dad Appreciation’s Post // Part II

Last week I shared some snippets that I wrote during Camp NaNo. As I said back then: I have more! The post was getting a bit too long and considering one of the snippets left is quite long, it was better to split it into two posts. So here we are!

Yong-sun An is worried about a lot of things, but at the top of his list? The future. Worried his anxiety will get in the way of everything he does, he has no clue what he’ll do after graduation. If he even graduates. Because that’s another thing he worries about. Not that his grades are bad, far from it, but one time it’s bound to go wrong, right?

Meanwhile, his not-best friend (except he is his best friend) Drew suddenly starts to act weird. Yong-sun has no idea how to help, but he has a feeling that it has to do with the mysterious text messages Drew has been getting.

Wow it’s Valentine’s Day what a coincidence asjbdgh

I stopped writing once I got to the confession scene because 1) I won Camp NaNo 2) I’m an awkward bean and so is Yong-sun and I feel everything he’s feeling adbjsh

Hey look it’s me

So the 20k words I wrote during Camp NaNo have a lot of great scenes of Yong-sun’s Dad and?? I love this dork?? Why is he barely present in the earlier parts

Did I mention I love him

I’m super insecure about this paragraph for multiple reasons, one being that it’s personal and it doesn’t feel good enough and the other being that I’m afraid it excludes non-binary people, but I don’t know how to change it?? Help???

Also I changed the actual name to [someone] because spoilers but you can probably guess who it is ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I really hope there aren’t any typos in these bjshd I was too afraid to check because I’m lazy dsfh If there’s a major error please point it out though because English isn’t my first language so I might not catch it once I reread my draft (don’t worry about being rude I would love you for it). Anyways hope you enjoyed these. Look it’s not all memes!!

Want to know more about my WIP?

💛 Introducing My Characters
💛 Sharing 7 lines from the WIP
💛 Snippets: How To Flirt 101 by Andrew Lewis and Yong-sun is a Blue Cow
💛 All Hallows Write Tag 
💛 Winter Is Here Write Tag
💛 Your WIP in Gifs Tag
💛 Let’s Celebrate Winning Camp NaNo With Some Snippets! // Part I

How’s your writing going? What are you working on? Do you share snippets of your writing on your blog/anywhere on the internet? Let me know in the comments!

Let’s Celebrate Winning Camp NaNo With Some Snippets! // Part I

As promised in my July wrap up I will share some snippets from my WIP! I randomly selected some stuff that my eyes fell on/that I remembered liking while writing them, as I’m not ready to reread everything that I’ve written yet dsnkgj

Yong-sun An is worried about a lot of things, but at the top of his list? The future. Worried his anxiety will get in the way of everything he does, he has no clue what he’ll do after graduation. If he even graduates. Because that’s another thing he worries about. Not that his grades are bad, far from it, but one time it’s bound to go wrong, right?

Meanwhile, his not-best friend (except he is his best friend) Drew suddenly starts to act weird. Yong-sun has no idea how to help, but he has a feeling that it has to do with the mysterious text messages Drew has been getting.

My son is a (hopefully lmao) relatable Mess™

I love how Hye-su included Peach’ title – gotta show that girl the respect she deserves

sdhgj I couldn’t resist

More relatable Mess™ Yong-sun An. But seriously this is me. I have a hate/love relationship when it comes to presents. I love giving people I care about presents!! But what do I do with my body!!

I initially liked this snippet but now I don’t really anymore abfjh I can’t exactly put my finger on it but?? Something’s missing. I wanted to include it though because I started to worry that my book was going to look like one big meme

Long story short: Yong-sun ended up with Benny as a nickname adjg If you’re wondering who Benny the blue cow is then we can’t be friends

I’m going to leave it at that for now, but I have a few more snippets to share for a second part! Please believe me when I say this is NOT a big meme sdgjh There are lots of serious topics and moments but most of those are pretty spoilery plus I’m not in the mood to reread them now because I’m in a good mood and most of it is very personal, so I don’t want to be affected by it.

Want to know more about my WIP?

💛 Introducing My Characters
💛 Sharing 7 lines from the WIP
💛 Snippets: How To Flirt 101 by Andrew Lewis and Yong-sun is a Blue Cow
💛 All Hallows Write Tag 
💛 Winter Is Here Write Tag
💛 Your WIP in Gifs Tag

How did Camp NaNo go for you? How is writing going in general? Can you relate to Yong-sun? Have your friends given you a nickname which you’d rather not have? Let me know in the comments!

The Monthly Hufflepuff July // I WON CAMP NANO

I GOT A VIP TICKET TO SEE LESBIAN JESUS I REPEAT 30 OCTOBER I WILL MEET HAYLEY KIYOKO 😭😭😭

On one hand I’m freaking out that it’s August already?? But on the other hand I now can’t wait till October so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Plus Janelle Monáe in September!! Guess who has a bit of a reading slump

This is due to several reasons:

💛 As you know I’ve been trying to focus on my writing (thus my lack of blogging)
💛 The weather has been uncomfortably hot and it’s hard for me to concentrate
💛 Trying to live more in the moment and do fun things
💛 I’m trying not to pressure myself to much and just do whatever I want whenever I want, and apparently that means barely any reading??
💛 I’d… just… rather… do other things? Who am I

I’m STILL reading Ace of Shades even though it’s really good and I’m enjoying it?? I know I could’ve finished this in a few days but,,, I don’t know what happened. I did have some trouble getting into it because I’ve gotten so used to the faster pace of contemporaries, but uhhhh It’s been over a month. I’m planning on rereading it at some point when I’m no longer in a slump

Anyway, I DID read during July despite still not having finished Ace of Shades, because I wanted to read Riveted‘s free reads of the month before they were gone. I also had to catch up on some of my favourite comics

💛 Fawkes by Nadine Brandes ⭐ – I had to put Ace of Shades down for this one because it was an ARC. And I didn’t enjoy it one bit :’) They were planning to kill the thing but they barely did anything?? It was very boring and I wasn’t impressed with the worldbuilding

💛 The Summer I Turned Pretty by Jenny Han ⭐⭐ – The only reason I gave this an extra star is because it was a very fast read, but I wasn’t impressed by this at all. Mini review coming up soon, but I’m in awe of how much Jenny Han improved after this? I wouldn’t have guessed this was written by the same person who wrote To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before

💛 Alex, Approximately by Jenn Bennett ⭐⭐⭐⭐ – My favourite read of the month! This one was just so much fun, yet it also deals with more heavier themes like trauma. 10/10 would recommend

💛 Museum of Heartbreak by Meg Leder ⭐⭐⭐ – Maybe more like 2.5? I don’t know I’m torn on this one. I barely remember anything sdbghs I’m going to try and write a minireview for it depending on how much I’ll remember

💛 Cotton Candy by Ringo Hamano ⭐⭐⭐ – A very cute manga about two girls falling in love! It’s very short, thus my three-star rating since there’s not that much build-up, but let me just say that the title is PERFECT for it.

COMICS: Giant Days #39 and #40 // Lumberjanes #51 and #52 // Zodiac Starforce: Cries of the Fire Prince #4

YA GIRL WON CAMP NANO ON THE VERY LAST DAY LIKE SHE DOES EVERY YEAR BECAUSE PROCRASTINATION IS HER BEST FRIEND

I’ve written little over 20k this month and I’m SO close to the actual end?? I might even finish it this week, but to be honest I might need a break from all the pressure and stress I’ve been giving myself over writing lol

I won’t share any snippets here, because I’m planning a post for that, so hopefully I’ll share some soon

As mentioned before, I decided to take a break from blogging this month. Even though I didn’t spend all of my time on writing, it did feel really good to not have that pressure and just enjoy my Summer? Don’t get me wrong, I still love blogging, but I do have a feeling I might reduce the amount of time I spent on it and pressure myself a lot less.

🐝 The Writing Hufflepuff 🐝

Reviews

💛 Amy and Roger’s Epic Detour // Not Really That Epic?
💛 Fawkes // Bored and Confused??

Bookish

💛 The Book Blogger Insider Tag // Did I Just Expose Myself As The Bad Blogger I Am

Writing

💛 Why I Often Don’t Write Even Though I Love Writing // A Cry For H e l p

Wrap ups

💛 The Weekly and Monthly Hufflepuff #71 June // Sad Because Pride Is Over, Freaking Out Because CAMP NANO HELP ME
💛 The Weekly Hufflepuff #72 // Writing What Is That I Don’t Know It

📷 Aesthetically Dreaming 📷

📸 The John Rylands Library // Absolutely Gorgeous and Magical
📸 Michelle Turns Art Into Memes

How has your month been? Did you participate in Camp NaNo? What was your favourite read? Let me know in the comments!

The Weekly Hufflepuff #72 // Writing What Is That I Don’t Know It

HOW ARE WE HALFWAY THROUGH JULY ALREADY CAN TIME JUST STOP PLEASE

I started Ace of Shades at the end of June and am still reading it. I am enjoying it, but the beginning is a bit slow and I’m just in the mood for contemporaries. So meanwhile I’ve been reading quite a few of those as well. Riveted has some summery contemporaries up for free this month which were perfect for my mood. In theory anyway lol. I didn’t enjoy The Summer I Turned Pretty, though it was a quick read, and The Museum of Heartbreak was cute but not much else? Alex, Approximately is a new fave though. Absolutely loved it. Expect a mini review soon! I also read Fawkes, as that came out this week and I needed to get my review up but… Eh. Not much happened? And finally I read a short manga called Cotton Candy about two girls falling in love. Though a bit short, it was really cute.

I skipped last week’s wrap up because I’ve been struggling with my mental health, stress and just lack of inspiration and motivation when it comes to writing (and thus blogging). It’s been really difficult for me to actually do something, which definitely has to do with the pressure of finding an internship. I absolutely hate writing motivation letters and that’s really getting in the way of me actually taking care of things. I did end up writing one for a job and now I feel like I need to take a nap for 1000000 years. I haven’t heard back yet which is not helping for my stress.

But that doesn’t mean I haven’t done anything these past two weeks. The start of last week was actually pretty good, especially writing wise. I actually ended up writing quite a bit, but then by Thursday I didn’t really have much time and tadah before I knew it I was out of the flow and it’s been really difficult to start again, with me feeling anxious about it again. The reason I didn’t have time to write on Thursday was because I went to Scheveningen with my best friend,which was definitely fun because it’s been a long time since I went there. It’s a seaside resort in Den Hague and since the weather was really nice it was beautiful to look at. I loved walking down the pier (which we did several times).

On Friday I got a haircut which I barely told anyone about, so it’s been fun seeing people’s reactions because…

I am no longer Rapunzel. I had been thinking about it for quite some time now but I was too scared to actually go through with it, so I didn’t even mention it to my mom. Two weeks ago I finally found the courage and showed my mom a picture of what I was thinking of (Kimberly from Power Rangers 2017) and since she was excited, that made me decide to just do it. I did have shorter hair when I was 13 but not quite as short as this, and I started to grow it out again at 15 so it did take some getting used to, but I’m really happy with it*

* My first reaction when I looked in the mirror was ‘BOY DO I LOOK GAY’ so mission accompished

On Tuesday my mom and I took my grandpa to Stedelijk Museum, where I work, which was a lot of fun, especially since he hasn’t been there in quite some time and a lot has changed since then. Though honestly that man needs to stop moving like he’s still 18 because the amount of times my mom or I had to grab him before he fell over on some piece of art was getting exhausting sdjgsh

On Thursday my mom and I went to the Efteling, which is a fairytale themepark in the Netherlands, which I had been looking forward to for quite some time now, but we kept waiting because one of our favourite rides was closed due to maintenance. Unfortunately this week they changed the info on their website, saying they didn’t know when it would open again, so we decided to just go this week since not all of the elementary and secondary schools are out for the summer yet and according to the park’s website Thursday would be less busy than the other days after that. Which was true! The longest we had to wait was 40 minutes, which is doable. We even managed to ride some of our favourite rides multiple times. I’m thinking of doing a post on the Efteling on my other blog, but if I do I’ll share it here in a wrap up.

Talking about why I often don’t write felt really good, especially after getting all of your lovely comments. It’s good to know I’m not alone (although obviously I don’t wish this on anyone!) and it really helped. After writing that post I immediately opened word and wrote quite a bit, which I really didn’t expect. Things were going great for the first half of the week, as I mentioned before, to the point that I wrote around 6000 words. I honestly thought I was going to be able to keep that up and reach 10k, which is half of my goal for this Camp NaNo. I chose that goal because I didn’t want to pressure myself too much and I have no idea how many more words I need to finish this? I’m SO close to finishing it. Like I’m about to resolve a huge plot point, but am I writing? No, because my stupid anxiety is getting in the way again. Even though I desperately want to write. Granted, I didn’t always have time to write these past two weeks, but I’ve spent hours doing nothing except scrolling through social media because I felt like crap and I hate it.

I did suddenly write a little bit yesterday evening. I’m not sure how happy I am with it, but I try to keep telling myself that it doesn’t need to be perfect and that’s what editing is for but dskgj Gotta love having anxiety and being a perfectionist :’)

Here are some tweets to sum up the time I actually spent writing:

HAHA YES I ACTUALLY DID THIS. All day I was struggling to get started because I was so tired and then all of a sudden I got inspiration?? For another WIP?? Thankfully I did end up working on my actual Camp NaNo project after but still

Here’s a snippet that I actually like:

wOW whAT a CoInCIdence ThAT it’S VAleNTine’S

Anyway, I’m hoping to get some writing done today so fingers crossed that my anxiety will just go away for a few hours

🐝 The Writing Hufflepuff 🐝

💛 Why I Often Don’t Write Even Though I Love Writing // A Cry For H e l p
💛 Amy and Roger’s Epic Detour // Not Really That Epic?
💛 The Book Blogger Insider Tag // Did I Just Expose Myself As The Bad Blogger I Am
💛 Fawkes // Bored and Confused??

📷 Aesthetically Dreaming 📷

📸 Plan Your Feed With Preview App
📸 The John Rylands Library // Absolutely Gorgeous and Magical

💛 Nyx @ Drizzle and Hurricane Books did The Book Aesthetics Tag
💛 Shai @ Cade Under Books shares seven favourite Harry Potter characters
💛 Sophie @ Sophie’s Corner shares 4 reasons to do Camp Nano
💛 The Orangutan Library talks about telling vs showing
💛 Fadwa @ Word Wonders pairs up books with songs
💛 Holly @ Nut Free Nerd talks about her trip to Edinburg
💛 Julianna @ Paper Blots shares 10 things about her new WIP

I’m probably going to be a bit inactive for a while, both when it comes to writing blog posts and bloghopping. I’ll blog when I feel like it, but I’m mostly going to try and focus on my writing when I do feel inspired and motivated. We’ll just have to wait and see what happens. Oh! I almost forgot woops. My giveaway ended yesterday, and I’ll be emailing the winners later today! If I don’t forget because let’s face it I’m Dory dsgjh

How is Camp NaNo going for you? Should we start a support group?? Are you enjoying your summer? Let me know in the comments!

Why I Often Don’t Write Even Though I Love Writing // A Cry For H e l p

With Camp NaNo having started I definitely feel the pressure to write. Of course I put that pressure on myself, because I know that something like Camp NaNo really helps motivate me, but lately the thought of writing has stressed me out. I’ve struggled with this for quite some time now (can I go back to being my ten year old self who didn’t think things through at all and just wrote and wrote and wrote even though it was absolute garbage) but lately I’ve been thinking a lot more about it.

With school being over, I have time to write. I even want to write. But do I write?? No.

There are obvious reasons why I don’t write: most of the time I’m too busy or tired. But there is plenty of time that I could spend on writing yet I don’t. And why?

Honestly, as strange as it sounds I recently figured out that I think I might be scared? I have NO IDEA why. I don’t know if it’s my anxiety, my insecurities or something else. But it’s why I often don’t write. I don’t feel like writing and when I do think of writing it almost feels like I’m having a panic attack, which is super odd and makes no sense because I love writing and often it’s a stress reliever?? It wasn’t always this bad, but now?? I’m very confused and annoyed. There’s really no point to this post beside me letting this out and hopefully finding a few people who go through this as well?? Because help??

I do think it probably has something to do with my anxiety and insecurities, but I have no idea WHY. Like if they could tell me what’s going on that’d be great thanks

I AM going to try and write. Not just because it’s Camp NaNo, but because I really want to write and finish my unnamed contemporary. But it feels like I’ll keep this feeling, at least for now, and uh I’d like to not feel like I’m about to have a panic attack over something I love to do thanks

Does someone wants to come with me and beat up my anxiety. We could make it a group outing and just beat up everyone’s anxiety it will be fun

Can you relate to this???? Or do you relate to not writing a lot in general despite loving it? Let me know in the comments!