Sadie // Heartbreaking, Intense But So So Important

Author: Courtney Summers
Genre: Contemporary // Mystery // YA
Goodreads rating: 4.42
My rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐

Sadie hasn’t had an easy life. Growing up on her own, she’s been raising her sister Mattie in an isolated small town, trying her best to provide a normal life and keep their heads above water.

But when Mattie is found dead, Sadie’s entire world crumbles. After a somewhat botched police investigation, Sadie is determined to bring her sister’s killer to justice and hits the road following a few meagre clues to find him.

When West McCray—a radio personality working on a segment about small, forgotten towns in America—overhears Sadie’s story at a local gas station, he becomes obsessed with finding the missing girl. He starts his own podcast as he tracks Sadie’s journey, trying to figure out what happened, hoping to find her before it’s too late.

Disclaimer: I was given an ARC of this book by Netgalley and the publisher (thank you!) in return for an honest review

Trigger warnings: hints of rape/child molestation, murder, mild violence

This book broke me. It’s gritty, real and oh so heartbreaking. I was thorn between not wanting to put it down and wanting to take a breather because oh my goodness.

Sadie is not a happy story, but it’s an important one. It’s not just the story of Sadie and Mattie, it’s the story of all the girls in the world who end up dead or missing simply because they’re girls. Throughout the entire book I just wanted to cry, because even though the story of Sadie and Mattie is fictional, it’s so so real.

Sadie is told through two perspectives: the first one being the podcast by West McCray, the second one by Sadie herself. McCray’s podcast takes place after Sadie’s story as he tries to figure out what happened. Even though we follow Sadie herself, we still don’t have all the puzzle pieces, so even though we sometimes know more than McCray does, it’s not much and you still find yourself wondering what happened. This way of storytelling kept me on my toes and immersed in the story.

But as I said before, it was also very hard to read. Sadie has gone through a lot of hardship, and the only thing that’s keeping her going after her sister’s murder is wanting to take down her sister’s killer. This isn’t just a revenge story, this is a story of a girl who wants to make sure no other kid has to go through what she did, of wanting to make sure that a monster is put away. She doesn’t even care what happens to herself, and that is so heartbreaking to read.

But most of all, she lives for her sister. She is overcome with guilt and grief and even though as a reader I’ve never met Mattie, it’s so easy to feel what Sadie feels by the way it’s written. One of my favourite quotes to describe Sadie is from West McCray (this is NOT a spoiler. He speaks in the past tense because she’s missing):

‘If I’ve learned anything about Sadie Hunter, it was that she was almost a secondary player in her own life. She lived for Mattie, lived to love, care for and protect her little sister, with every breath.’

Even though a lot of the characters we only meet for a little while, some even only through McCray’s podcast, they all felt like real people to me which doesn’t happen that often with supporting and minor characters.

I honestly can’t do Sadie justice with my review or properly put my feelings towards this book into words. All I can do is tell you to read this important story (but do be careful if this material can be triggering for you).

Sadie is raw, real, heartbreaking and incredibly well-written. I couldn’t recommend it enough and I can’t wait to read more by Summers. I know Sadie will stay with me for a long time.

Sadie comes out on September 4th.

Have you read Sadie, or are you planning to? Do you know any similar books (YA please because I can’t handle adult books with these themes) that you’d recommend? Let me know in the comments!

5 Books That I Need To Be Turned Into Anime

Us bookworms have a love/hate relationship with adaptations – obviously we want our favourite books on the small/big screen, but if it’s not done right… All hell breaks loose. But do we learn from those disastrous adaptations? Do we become cautious?

Nope we dream of more adaptations! Or at least I do. I spend waaaay too many hours thinking about books that would make great movies, tv shows, video games, musicals and as I will talk about in this post: anime. I might do a second part at some point in the future, but here are five books/series that I would love to see turned into anime.

💛 Geek Girl 💛

Geek Girl would be SUCH a cute and funny shoujo?? Harriet would on one hand be the PERFECT shoujo protagonist as she’s clumsy and can be so oblivious about what’s going on around her, but on the other hand she’d be so refreshing because she is so so flawed but she realises it and grows so much throughout the books. Also cute friendships!! Cute romances!! The most adorable family!! Travelling around the world and shenanigans!! Modelling gone wrong!! Where is my Geek Girl anime I made myself want it so badly now 

💛 The Chaos Walking Trilogy 💛

CAN YOU IMAGINE THE BADASS OPENINGS AND MELANCHOLIC ENDINGS BECAUSE I CAN. Especially the ending of season 2 a.k.a. The Ask and the Answer with (select the following text to read the spoiler) Todd and Viola being separated it would be so beautiful yet the ANGST. And you know those terrifying anime villain expressions, with the eyes bulging and the creepy grin (bonus points if they laugh out loud too) I could so imagine mayor Prentiss like that in an anime. The plot and themes are just perfect for an anime – it would work so well. Oh no I just thought of Manchee in anime style rip there goes my heart and soul.

Oh boy this post was not a good idea now I got ANOTHER anime I badly want and will I get it?? Most likely not

💛 Percy Jackson 💛

Okay so the movies failed TERRIBLY like they probably just read the blurbs, thought ‘that sounds cool’ and went with that and now I’m left with a huge hole in my chest that needs to be filled with a good Percy Jackson adaptation and an anime?? Would be GREAT. A western cartoon would be too (like if done by the same team as Avatar). The creatures, magic and all that jazz would cost a lot of money in live action stuff to make it look good, but animated?? That would look SO good. Plus the humour would just work so well – imagine those expressions!!

💛 The Lunar Chronicles 💛

Marissa Meyer’s worldbuilding would look STUNNING in an anime, imagine the music, Thorne is basically an anime character already and just,, it works so well?? That’s all I have to say?? Because it’s been too long since I’ve read this series rip*

* I want to reread SO MANY BOOKS so badly but 1) I have plenty of unread books to read and 2) reading slump rip

💛 Harry Potter 💛

Listen, I love the movies, but I would love a tv show or an anime that follows the books more closely, includes scenes that weren’t that important to the plot and thus left out, develops the characters and relationships better… A tv show would be AMAZING but an anime would be fun too. I just want both to be honest. Can you imagine Draco being turned into a ferret, anime-style?? Iconic. Harry Potter is filled with so many unique characters that are perfect for anime and all the magic would look incredible.

What do you think of my choices? Do you agree with them? Which books would you love to see turned into anime? Let me know in the comments!

Summery Contemporary Mini Reviews // The Summer I Turned Pretty, Alex, Approximately and The Museum of Heartbreak

Last month I read a few summery contemporaries that were up for free on Riveted and since I can’t write full reviews for any of them why not review them all in one post?

Author: Jenny Han
Genre: Contemporary //  YA
Series: Summer #1
Goodreads rating: 3.95
My rating: ⭐⭐

Belly measures her life in summers. Everything good, everything magical happens between the months of June and August. Winters are simply a time to count the weeks until the next summer, a place away from the beach house, away from Susannah, and most importantly, away from Jeremiah and Conrad. They are the boys that Belly has known since her very first summer–they have been her brother figures, her crushes, and everything in between. But one summer, one terrible and wonderful summer, the more everything changes, the more it all ends up just the way it should have been all along.

To be honest if this hadn’t been free on Riveted I wouldn’t have picked it up. I love Jenny Han, but the blurb never appealed to me and it turns out my intuition was right. I’m honestly surprised that this is written by Jenny Han, because I absolutely love To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before, but The Summer I Turned Pretty is nothing like that. Not much happens in this book, the characters are flat, Belly is whiny and annoying and the writing is just not that good? I know there are mixed feelings about this book out there, but personally I wouldn’t recommend anyone who hasn’t read TATBILB to read this, because it could seriously turn them off. There are more important topics discussed in this book, but it’s barely there and kind of felt like an after thought. I rated it two stars because it WAS a quick read. Don’t get me started on the romance though. I don’t see the appeal of one of the love interests at all and the endgame romance just didn’t feel built up to me? It didn’t come out of nowhere, but that’s mostly because it was predictable not because it was well written.

Author: Jenn Bennett
Genre: Contemporary //  YA
Goodreads rating: 4.01
My rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐

Classic movie fan Bailey “Mink” Rydell has spent months crushing on a witty film geek she only knows online as Alex. Two coasts separate the teens until Bailey moves in with her dad, who lives in the same California surfing town as her online crush.

Faced with doubts (what if he’s a creep in real life—or worse?), Bailey doesn’t tell Alex she’s moved to his hometown. Or that she’s landed a job at the local tourist-trap museum. Or that she’s being heckled daily by the irritatingly hot museum security guard, Porter Roth—a.k.a. her new archnemesis. But life is a whole lot messier than the movies, especially when Bailey discovers that tricky fine line between hate, love, and whatever it is she’s starting to feel for Porter.

And as the summer months go by, Bailey must choose whether to cling to a dreamy online fantasy in Alex or take a risk on an imperfect reality with Porter. The choice is both simpler and more complicated than she realizes, because Porter Roth is hiding a secret of his own: Porter is Alex…

I ABSOLUTELY loved this one. I gave it four stars because I was missing something (not sure what? Sometimes that just happens) but oh my goodness I flew through it and it was so much better than I expected. It has some of my favourite tropes, including characters not realising who the other is, enemies to lovers, great banter and silly adventures. It’s adorable and fun, yet also meaningful as both Bailey and Porter have to deal with their own trauma. Bailey tends to avoid pretty much everything that’s difficult and that was SO relatable. I loved seeing this in a main character.

And the fact that she and Porter worked at this really weird museum? SOLD. What I didn’t know about this book before going in is that Porter is half-Hawaiian and Bailey’s new best friend (who’s amazing and I loved their friendship) is black. Bailey also has a great relationship with her dad so what more do you want??* Despite my four star rating this is definitely a new favourite. Maybe soon I’ll realise that this is more of a five star read? Who knows I change my ratings all the time lol #reliableblogger

* Honestly I should be asking myself this considering I gave this four stars but as I finished it that just felt right??

Author: Meg Leder
Genre: Contemporary //  YA
Goodreads rating: 3.7
My rating: ⭐⭐⭐

Welcome to the Museum of Heartbreak.

Well, actually, to Penelope Marx’s personal museum. The one she creates after coming face to face with the devastating, lonely-making butt-kicking phenomenon known as heartbreak.

Heartbreak comes in all forms: There’s Keats, the charmingly handsome new guy who couldn’t be more perfect for her. There’s possibly the worst person in the world, Cherisse, whose mission in life is to make Penelope miserable. There’s Penelope’s increasingly distant best friend Audrey. And then there’s Penelope’s other best friend, the equal-parts-infuriating-and-yet-somehow-amazing Eph, who has been all kinds of confusing lately.

But sometimes the biggest heartbreak of all is learning to let go of that wondrous time before you ever knew things could be broken.

My rating is probably more a 2.5 than three stars to be honest. I really loved the premise of this one. Each chapter starts with an item Penelope has curated in her museum of heartbreak: it comes with an illustration and a very short description (title, number of the item and how she’s gotten it, if I remember correctly). I love it when books have formatting like this, but the story itself… I wasn’t very impressed with. It had a lot of potential as Penelope gets into an unhealthy relationship, but the thing is it never really gets addressed how unhealthy and toxic it was? In the end she’s just like ‘I guess I never really liked him that much’ instead of addressing all the red flags that you should definitely avoid in a relationship. This could’ve been such a powerful story, but now I’m afraid it does a little bit more harm than good.

I was also really annoyed with the way Audrey treated Penelope. She wasn’t a bad friend per se, but her new friend Cherisse treated Penelope horribly and she never stood up for Penelope. Even after doing something really horrible to her at the end, Audrey is all ‘I want to be friends with you both I hope you understand’ and Penelope accepts that. In my eyes this just isn’t a healthy friendship and shows readers that you should just put up with everything

Other than that, it just felt a bit flat and underdeveloped to me and I honestly couldn’t tell you what really the point was? I did like the new friends Penelope made and it was a fun and cute read most of the time. If the book had addressed the toxic relationships in Penelope’s life it would’ve already been a lot better.

Phew, I’m glad I got those out of the way. I’m surprised at how long my review for The Museum of Heartbreak turned out because I really thought I had forgotten most of it lmao

Also I love how I reviewed books I read in July before pretty much all the ones I read in June adsgjh (help me)

Have you read any of these? What did you think? What’s your favourite summer read? Let me know in the comments!

Fawkes // Bored and Confused??

Author: Nadine Brandes
Genre: Fantasy // Historical // Retelling //  YA
Goodreads rating: 3.84
My rating: ⭐

 

 

 

 

 

Thomas Fawkes is turning to stone, and the only cure to the Stone Plague is to join his father’s plot to assassinate the king of England.

Silent wars leave the most carnage. The wars that are never declared, but are carried out in dark alleys with masks and hidden knives. Wars where color power alters the natural rhythm of 17th century London. And when the king calls for peace, no one listens until he finally calls for death.

But what if death finds him first?

Keepers think the Igniters caused the plague. Igniters think the Keepers did. But all Thomas knows is that the Stone Plague infecting his eye is spreading. And if he doesn’t do something soon, he’ll be a lifeless statue. So when his Keeper father, Guy Fawkes, invites him to join the Gunpowder Plot—claiming it will put an end to the plague—Thomas is in.

The plan: use 36 barrels of gunpowder to blow up the Igniter King.

The problem: Doing so will destroy the family of the girl Thomas loves. But backing out of the plot will send his father and the other plotters to the gallows. To save one, Thomas will lose the other.

No matter Thomas’s choice, one thing is clear: once the decision is made and the color masks have been put on, there’s no turning back.

Disclaimer: I was given an ARC of this book by Netgalley and the publisher (thank you!) in return for an honest review

I’ve started to make aesthetics for my reviews but I had no clue what to include for this one? Masks? London? I don’t know because barely anything happened.

I really don’t have that much to say about this book. I was honestly very bored and started to skimread early on, because I just wanted it to be over with. Just being bored with it just didn’t feel like a good reason to DNF it, considering it’s an ARC but oh my god if it hadn’t been.

I wasn’t impressed with the writing style at all, or with Thomas, as he’s very dull and whiny. There are quite a few characters in this book, but barely any of them stood out. By the end of it I had no idea who was who, nor did I care what happened to them. I was just very disattached from everything that was happening.

Also I have NO clue how the ‘magic’ works. They can control colours?? But I have no idea what that means or how it works? Nor do I know much about the world? It did help knowing a lil bit of the actual history, as the entire book is basically a religious allegory. Basically this war is between Catholics and Protestants, but in the world of Fawkes it’s not very clear WHY there’s a war. Just basing this on real history isn’t enough, I mean I had no clue who Guy Fawkes was so I had to look that up. Your readers shouldn’t do your work for you.

And uggggh you’d think a plot to kill the king would be exciting to read about, but they mostly just talked and talked and talked and

Basically I was bored and confused throughout most of this book. The only interesting character was the girl Thomas is in love with. I forgot her name. Does make you wonder how interesting she really was dsfjb No she really was, but since it’s told from Thomas’ pov and the writing was just so dull it made her less interesting as well. What I’m saying is, she had potential and I much rather would’ve read from her pov. Being black and a girl, she has to hide her skin colour because of the abusive family that has taken her in, but she’s determined to make a life for herself as an artist and fights back against racism. MUCH more interesting than whiny Thomas.

Fawkes is out today! Don’t let my negative review stop you from picking this up if it sounds like your cup of tea. This one just wasn’t for me, but maybe you’ll fall in love with it!

Have you read Fawkes? Or are you planning on it? What’s the last retelling you read? Let me know in the comments!

Amy and Roger’s Epic Detour // Not Really That Epic?

Author: Morgan Matson
Genre: Contemporary //  YA
Goodreads rating: 4.03
My rating: ⭐⭐⭐

 

 

 

 

 

Amy Curry is not looking forward to her summer. Her mother decided to move across the country and now it’s Amy’s responsibility to get their car from California to Connecticut. The only problem is, since her father died in a car accident, she isn’t ready to get behind the wheel. Enter Roger. An old family friend, he also has to make the cross-country trip – and has plenty of baggage of his own. The road home may be unfamiliar – especially with their friendship venturing into uncharted territory – but together, Amy and Roger will figure out how to map their way.
When I saw that Amy and Roger’s Epic Detour was up for free on Riveted (this was last month) I immediately started to read it, as I loved The Unexpected Everything and Since You’ve Been Gone. Unfortunately this one fell a bit short for me.

Amy and Roger’s Epic Detour was just a little bit too long for me, while not much happened. Or at least it felt that way to me. Of course everything they go through is important for Amy to overcome her grief and for her and Roger’s relationship to develop, but at times I wondered if certain events were really necessary to the plot. But most of all I really missed the things I fell in love with while reading Matson’s other novels: family and friendship. It does make sense plotwise why Amy’s family isn’t in this much, except for flashbacks, but I still wish we could’ve seen more of them. I felt incredibly detached to Amy’s family and while I’m a very emotional person, her having lost her father didn’t really make me feel anything. The book also ended before Amy’s mom could play a bigger part, which was disappointing (even though I did find the book too long) and left me with a lot of questions.

And then there’s the lack of friendship. Okay, so Amy and Roger start out as friends and that was great! I loved them! But I still really missed the friendship element that I loved so much in The Unexpected Everything and Since You’ve Been Gone. Amy does have a best friend, but she has moved away before the book begins and barely plays a part. Plus there’s some conflict there, as Amy has ignored her for quite some time now due to her grief. We never see this resolved which just felt weird to me. During the trip Amy does make some friends, but we never see them again.

Amy and Roger’s Epic Detour was both too long and too short at the same time. Too short because there’s just too much missing, too much left hardly touched upon or resolved, whereas the actual book was just a bit too long for me. I’m glad that this wasn’t my first Matson book, as I probably would’ve been hesitant to pick up her other books and missed out badly.

That said, it was a fun read – I mean road trip! I’m a sucker for road trips. Seeing Amy overcome her grief and trauma was also great. There’s a lot of potential for this to have been a great read, but it just fell a bit short.

Have you read Amy and Roger’s Epic Detour? What’s your favourite Matson book? How do you feel about road trips in books? Let me know in the comments!

LGBTQIAP+ Books I Want To See Turned Into Movies Part II

A little while ago I talked about LGBTQIAP+ books I want to see adapted, but there was no way I could fit all of them in one post, so here’s part two! One day there will be a part III, but there’s no way I’m getting that up before Pride ends. So for now, here are six more LGBTQIAP+ books I want to see on the big screen!

Leah on the Offbeat

Now that Love, Simon is out, I want to see a movie about two bi girls falling in love okay? Also while I did like Katherine as Leah, I really want them to recast her with a fat actress. Fat bi girls deserve rep too.

Magnus Chase Trilogy


Just noticed that the center image is cut off adfjsbg I’m too lazy to make a new one

Obviously not made by the same people behind the Percy Jackson movies* The Magnus Chase books would make such a fun movie franchise. Can you imagine the Nine Worlds on the big screen? Also a pansexual main character and brown genderfluid love interest – yes please. Plus a huge focus on friendship! One of the things I love about this trilogy is that Magnus truly is a healer, and that’s how he solves conflicts – he’s not the best fighter, but his love for his friends keeps him going. And let’s not forget the other rep among the main cast, like a Muslim Valkyrie and a black dwarf.

* Wait what movies am I talking about are there movies??

Six of Crows Duology

Though a tv show would also be lots of fun?? I don’t know, as long as it’s done well. Whether it’s two movies or a tv show, I do hope they make it a lot more obvious that Nina is bi, because I learned that she was by reading it on the internet, because apparently Bardugho said so?? Did I miss that in the books?? If you’re not familiar with Six of Crows it has a black bi boy and a white boy fall in love (I don’t think Wylan ever showed interest in girls? But I don’t want to just label him). It’s a great slowburn, but all the relationships in this duology are great. Plus heists!! Heist movies/tv shows are GREAT. Who doesn’t want that

Timekeeper

This one is SO underrated. I mean a sequel came out but no one is even talking about this? That includes me though because I haven’t read the sequel yet hahaha I’m a terrible fan. BUT THIS BOOK. It’s absolutely beautiful and so unique? The main character is gay and has PTSD (such great PTSD rep!!) and he falls in love with the spirit of a clock tower. There’s also a biracial girl trying to make it in a men’s world. In this world they are dependent on clocks (like the Big Ben, not a regular clock in your living room), if a clock breaks, the entire town will be stuck in time, with no way of getting out. Mechanics like the MC and the girl have to make sure that doesn’t happen. I did all that from memory so I hope that makes sense. The romance is adorable and, spoiler before I get attacked: they get their happy ending*

* The sequel better not ruin that asdgbj

I Was Born For This

I just finished this the other day and I have no words?? I Was Born For This blew me away and I definitely get all the hype for Alice Oseman. I’m not sure a movie could do this book justice, as it would miss the incredible, thoughtful writing, but it would be a great movie nonetheless. Plus that rep!! The two main characters are a Muslim girl and a trans gay boy with anxiety. There’s great rep among the supporting cast as well plus it’s a great take on fame and how it affects celebrities. This would just be an incredible movie??

The Upside of Unrequited

The main character of The Upside isn’t queer herself, but she has two moms (one of them black) and a twin who’s a lesbian, dating a pan Korean girl. Same sex marriage has just been legalised so the movie would start with that and show how everyone outside is celebrating. Her moms decide to get married as soon as possible, so the MC is busy with their wedding, as she’s taken it upon herself to plan everything. Ending a movie with a big gay wedding is the best kind of ending to be honest. While the book doesn’t show much of her twin and her girlfriend, because it’s told from the MC’s pov, the movie could show us more of their relationship. Plus the MC is fat and has anxiety – so it’s just a fun, happy movie with lots of great rep and important messages! A.k.a. the perfect feel good movie

I need these movies ASAP okay?? THE WORLD NEEDS THESE MOVIES ASAP. Please let Love, Simon have been the first step to getting more LGBTQIAP+ YA books adapted

Have you read any of these? Which LGBTQIAP+ books would you like to see adapted? Let me know in the comments!

Cinderella Boy // Genderfluid Cinderella and Queer Kids Fighting Back

Author: Kristina Meister
Genre: Contemporary // Fairytale Retelling // LGBTQIAP+ // YA
Goodreads rating: 4.59
My rating: ⭐⭐⭐

 

 

 

Sixteen-year-old Declan is the perfect son . . . except for one tiny issue. When his sister Delia comes home to find him trying on her clothes, he fears her judgment, but she only fears his fashion choices. One quick makeover later, Declan is transformed into Delia’s mysterious cousin Layla and dragged to the party of the year, hosted by Carter, the most popular boy in school.

When Carter meets Layla, he fumbles to charm her. He adores her sense of humor and her poise. But when she vanishes in the middle of the night, he’s left confused and determined to solve the mystery of who she is.

As their school year begins, their high school embraces a policy of intolerance, and both Declan and Carter know they must stand up. Carter is tired of being a coward and wants to prove he can be a knight in shining armor. Declan is sick of being bullied and wants desperately to be himself. If they team up, it could be a fairy-tale ending, or a very unhappy ever after.

Disclaimer: I was given a copy of this book by Netgalley and the publisher (thank you!) in exchange for an honest review

Note: Declan uses he/him pronouns

Well this was definitely a fun read! A genderfluid Cinderella, a queer Prince Charming, a cute romance and queer kids fighting for their rights? Yes please!

I definitely would’ve given this four stars if the first half hadn’t been so slow. The first half mostly consists of Declan/Layla going on dates with Carter and while they were cute I also didn’t really care? There just wasn’t much going on and the main plot was nowhere in sight yet. The first half was just really too long as it really felt like a build up to the second half. I would’ve preferred if it had been shorter and if some of the things that happened in the second half were build up more. Like I would’ve loved to have seen more of Declan’s friendship with Yuki who’s supposed to be his best friend, his relationship with his sister (which was great and adorable and I loved how supportive she was) and Carter’s relationship with his father, as that relationship was very important to him as a person and for his growth, and it kind of felt like it was just squeezed in there. Once we get to the second half though, that’s where the book got really good and I had to continue reading it to see what happens next.

One of Declan’s new friends at his new high school wants to start an LGBTQIAP+ club called The Rainbow Corps (A+ name obviously) but the homophobic principal forbids the club and starts to pull a lot of other homophobic crap after that, but the queer kids at the school don’t back down. Seeing them fight back was empowering and inspiring, and I love the way they went about it (really don’t want to spoil it because it’s so much fun reading it for yourself). While it deals with some harder topics, this book was fun, cute and empowering. The romance has some of my favourite tropes, like one of the characters talking about their crush to their crush without saying that they’re their crush. Did that sentence make sense. Also lots of banter and that epilogue was ADORABLE. Very fanfiction-y but hey it’s a fairytale retelling that’s allowed. 

”It’s not a costume for me. It’s not dress-up. It’s not pretend. It’s me, or part of me, an aspect of me that gets to be in that moment.”

I do however unfortunately need to point out that two characters make comments that erase multiple gender attraction. Like when Declan describes his crush to Carter he says ‘he’s just not gay’. Declan knows Carter had a girlfriend, but that doesn’t make him straight? If that comment had been addressed I would’ve been fine with it, but it wasn’t.

If you’re looking for a queer, fun and cute story where a genderfluid MC gets his fairytale ending I’d definitely recommend Cinderella Boy. Please keep going through if like me you have a bit trouble with the first half, because Cinderella Boy is so so worth it and an absolute gem.

Have you read Cinderella Boy, or are you planning on it? Any recs for YA books (fairytale retellings or not) with genderfluid MCs? Let me know in the comments!

LGBTQIAP+ Books I Want To See Turned Into Movies Part I

That’s me right now. I know I didn’t disappear on the blog* but it’s how I feel because ugggh exams are next week and I’m dead. I don’t even know how I’m writing this post right now. Planning exams during Pride is homophobic tbh

ANYWAY. Today I thought I’d talk about some LGBTQIAP+ books that I want to see follow in Love, Simon’s footsteps. Hopefully it opened doors for many other great YA books with LGBTQIAP+ leads to follow *fingers crossed*

* I did skip a weekly wrap up but I mean,, I do that all the time so

Queens of Geek

Obviously I want to see one of my favourite books of all time on the big screen, but I mean?? That rep though?? The two leads are a Chinese-Australian bisexual girl (Charlie) and a fat, autistic girl with anxiety (Taylor)?? And Charlie’s love interest is a black girl (Alyssa*)?? Both romances are adorable, but Charlie and Alyssa’s first date?** ICONIC. ADORABLE. NEED TO SEE THAT ON THE BIG SCREEN. Taylor and Jamie were adorable and so healthy too though! It’s a super fun and cute read (it takes place during a convention!) but it also addresses so many important topics adgnjs I just love Queens of Geek and I need to see it adapted asap ok pls thank u

* I don’t remember her sexuality and I hate myself
** Don’t quote me on this I remember it as their first date but hey maybe it was their second I haven’t had the time yet to reread this beauty because exams ugh

The Gentleman’s Guide to Vice and Virtue

SO APPARENTLY GREG BERLANTI, DIRECTOR OF LOVE, SIMON, HAS SHOWN INTEREST IN THE GENTLEMAN’S GUIDE AND MAKING ALL MY DREAMS COME TRUE. Okay so apparently he’s planning on making it into a tv show and I know this post is about movies but?? Idc?? A tv show would be even better because MORE of my kids. I haven’t gotten around to reviewing this yet which is,, offensive tbh,, but I want to reread it first because I barely remember anything. But!! The protagonist Monty is bi, his love interest is a black boy who has epilepsy and Monty’s sister is most likely ace*. The book touches on so many important topics like racism, sexism, ableism and so much more. Also PTSD rep! Plus it’s just super fun (road trip! friendship! siblings! pirates! shenanigans!) and the romance is great?? Wow I am not doing this justice curse my bad memory

* I don’t know if this has been confirmed yet or if we have to wait for her book to come out since I’m very out of the loop

Anger is a Gift

I’ve already talked about how good Anger is a Gift is and why you should read it in my review here but seriously you need to read it? And it would make an INCREDIBLE film. Anger is a Gift is a very powerful look on police brutality and just like The Hate U Give will open so many eyes. I really hope studios won’t think ‘we already have The Hate U Give’ so we don’t need to adapt AIAG as well because boy we need so many more movies on police brutality. It’s also super diverse: none of the main characters are white, many LGTBQIAP+ identities (multiple trans characters AND a nonbinary character? I was shook), a disabled character, a character with PTSD, a muslim character… We need this movie okay

Cinderella Boy

Okay so I haven’t reviewed this yet (I will! Though more towards the end of the month) but this would be such a cute Disney Channel like movie? I say ‘like’ because I doubt Disney Channel is ready for a Cinderella retelling with a genderfluid main character and a queer Prince Charming. But yeah, this would be such a cute, empowering movie? Plus queer kids fighting for their rights!! There are moments of injustice in this book that will make you mad of course, but in the end it’s also a ‘feel good’ book as it shows these kids supporting each other and fighting against bigotry, and *spoiler, though it’s very much a fairytale so a happy ending is to be expected* they win! Plus that epilogue is perfect and would make such a cute ending scene

Tash Hearts Tolstoy

I just finished this one and immediately thought of putting it on this list because asexual protagonist! If Tash Hearts Tolstoy were made into a movie it could really teach people about asexuality and give ace teens great rep, while at the same time it would be a really fun movie about a bunch of kids adapting Anna Karenina into a webshow (it could switch between the main storyline and their webshow?). Tash Hearts Tolstoy isn’t about Tash’s asexuality, it’s just a part of who she is and of course of the romance. If done right it could break harmful stereotypes and ideas about asexuality and help so many ace kids. If you haven’t read Tash Hearts Tolstoy yet, it’s up for free on Riveted during the entire month of June!

Autoboyography

Autoboyography shows a gay mormon kid coming to terms with his sexuality and is really respectful towards religion – it really shows that the authors did a lot of research. I think Autoboyography could really help a lot of LGBTQIAP+ religious kids, while it also has great bi rep. While it can get pretty intense it’s also just beautiful, fun and cute and would make such a heartfelt movie. I was honestly blown away and haven’t been able to fully gather my thoughts yet. I’ve mentioned before that Autoboyography is up for free on Riveted this month, but in case you missed that or forgot go grab your chance to read it!

Did I even do any of these books justice?? I feel like I just gushed because I love them all a lot and writing cohesively is hard. If you haven’t read any of these yet, I highly recommend all of them. I loved the rep, the characters, the stories, the queerness, the writing… Just everything okay?? I need all of these as movies and not just for selfish reasons but let’s be real here, movies have a far wider reach than books and these stories and characters are so important. If any of these get adapted I will cry

Part two hopefully coming soon, because I have a lot more LGBTQIAP+ books I want to see turned into movies that I need to talk about

Have you read any of these? Which LGBTQIAP+ books would you like to see turned into movies? Let me know in the comments!

Books I Loved But?? Memory?? ERROR CANNOT BE FOUND

Do you ever look at your highest rated books on Goodreads and marvel at the fact that you don’t remember like,, half of them? ME TOO. So I figured I’d talk about them, see if I can remember if I loved them, whether you should read them and if should reread them. Oh and possibly freak out because sequels were published without me even realising it help

Rise of the Darklings 

The book that inspired this post. The other day i noticed it on my goodreads shelves and saw the five star rating but?? I had forgotten this even existed?? I remember two things about this book: 1) at some point Merlin showed up and my inner BBC Merlin fangirl freaked and 2) for some reason I imagined the piskie (a fairy creature) to look like the Pokemon Sneasel 


what fairy creature looks like this why does my brain work this way

I don’t think it was described to look anything like this. I remember not getting why I pictured it that way back then too lmao Since I read this before I started blogging there is no review so I guess I’ll never find out why I loved this one so much that I gave it five stars  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I Am Princess X

I raved SO MUCH about this one when I read it back in 2015 and even included it in my top 10 reads of that year but now? When someone asks me for my favourite book, I Am Princess X definitely does not pop up into my head. Granted, I’ve read a lot of books since then that do surpass it, but still. It makes me sad that I didn’t even remember this book, considering how much I loved it back then. If you’re not familiar with I Am Princess X (which is likely because I don’t think I’ve ever seen someone mention this book??) it’s about two best friends who created the comic I Am Princess X together, but then one of them goes missing. The other stops working on the comic, but then suddenly I Am Princess X resurfaces, and she begins to wonder if maybe her best friend is behind it and that the new comics are actually clues about what happened to her. It focuses a lot on friendship (no romance!!), I found it to be a page turner and I loved that the comic pages were included. Okay now I want to reread this

The School For Good and Evil Series

THERE’S A FOURTH BOOK AND I HAVEN’T READ IT YET??? I EVEN KIND OF FORGOT ABOUT IT? EVEN THOUGH THIS IS LIKE ONE OF MY FAVOURITE SERIES?

Very, very underrated which is SUCH a shame because it’s so good? It’s about two girls who get taken to The School For Good and Evil, where they have to prepare for their own fairytales. The books play a lot with tropes, references so many fairytales, has great worldbuilding, is actually quite dark?? But also has great messages and the friendship between the two girls is central to the plot. Look at that more books I want to reread.

Made You Up

I didn’t exactly forget about this one, especially with Eliza and Her Monsters, written by the same author, coming out last year, but I still feel like I kind of forgotten about it, especially on the blog! It was one of my favourite reads of 2015 but I never mention it? I remember Made You Up getting me out of a slump as I just couldn’t put it down. Also the author reposted my photo on her insta #nobigdeal #ifreakedout 

Magonia

To be fair I don’t think I’d enjoy this one if I were to read this one now haha. Looking back I’m actually surprised I enjoyed it this much and gave it four stars? There are a lot of mixed feelings about this one (at least back when it came out) and I’d probably be more on the negative side if I were to (re)read it now. I don’t even remember what I liked??? I just realised I reviewed it thank you past me for being helpful. Looking at my list of things I disliked though…I can just tell that that would outweigh the good for me if I were to reread it now haha. Apparently Ava quickly adjusted to her new life after just dying and then suddenly finding herself on a ship with magical bird people*, there’s a love triangle which included a jerk and apparently the concept is a bit vague and not really explained?? Past me was a mysterious being for giving this 4.5 stars

* This is not a spoiler btw

The Parasol Protectorate

Look! It’s one of my favourite series from when I was 15. I’ve seen The Finishing School series, its YA prequel series (though written after The Parasol Protectorate), around a bit in the blogging community, but The Parasol Protectorate? My bisexual* parasol-wielding badass heroine Alexia Tarabotti? NOWHERE TO BE FOUND. The series takes place in the Victorian era* but the supernatural is living out in the open. Vampires are THE fashionistas, while werewolves serve in the army. Alexia on the other hand is Soulless, which doesn’t mean she doesn’t have a heart, but she can be a bit cold if I remember correctly which is so refreshing to see. There are also other multiple queer characters and it’s just so wonderful? Definitely want to reread this now. Hopefully I remember this correctly and I won’t find anything problematic during my reread *cue nervous laughter* ***

* It’s been years since I read this but I remember her clearly being interested in another woman? She didn’t act on it though as she was in a relationship with a man. I don’t think it was ever stated that she was bisexual, that’s just how I read it back then and you will have to pry this headcanon from my cold dead bi hands
** Don’t quote me on this this entire post is written around the fact I have bad memory lol
*** 15-year old me was clueless as heck y’all how are 15-year olds and younger nowaday so wise and aware I didn’t know anything

Ash Mistry and the Savage Fortress


I accidentally took this picture but I really like it? Plus it gives of a fantasy vibe which is perfect

Think Percy Jackson except it’s about an Indian boy, Indian mythology and I don’t think he’s a demigod? I have no memory of this except it being a really fun read and siblings!! And that it was a real page turner. If you love Percy Jackson or any of Rick Riordan’s mythology series I’d definitely recommend this one. There are two more books that I never ended up reading, because I just,, like any other book on this list,, forgot about it?? Which is such a shame. I blame new shiny books coming out every day and taking my attention away.

The Invisible Library


Uhhh I accidentally used the sequel but I didn’t want to redo the picture with the first book because the red looks so pretty??

Look!! Another series that I just remembered has a new book out and I haven’t read it yet even though I really enjoyed the first two books. The main character is a spy for the Invisible Library, having to retrieve books from all these different kind of worlds, which is just so much fun. I loved the detective atmosphere and travelling through other worlds.*

* Just went to check because I had a feeling a fourth book may be out already AND YEP I’M TWO BOOKS BEHIND SOON THREE BECAUSE BOOK 5 IS COMING OUT THIS YEAR RIP ME

I might actually do a part 2 if I come across more books I loved but forgotten about. Considering my memory that’s very likely! So if you liked this post and want to see a second part let me know.

Have you read any of these books? What did you think of them? Do you forget awesome books regularly as well? Let me know in the comments!

Daughter of Smoke and Bone // More Like of Insta-Love and Bore

Author: Laini Taylor
Genre: Fantasy | YA
Series: Daughter of Smoke and Bone #1
Goodreads rating: 4.04
My rating: ⭐⭐

 

 

 

 

 

 

Around the world, black handprints are appearing on doorways, scorched there by winged strangers who have crept through a slit in the sky.

In a dark and dusty shop, a devil’s supply of human teeth grows dangerously low.

And in the tangled lanes of Prague, a young art student is about to be caught up in a brutal otherwordly war.

Meet Karou. She fills her sketchbooks with monsters that may or may not be real, she’s prone to disappearing on mysterious “errands”, she speaks many languages – not all of them human – and her bright blue hair actually grows out of her head that color. Who is she? That is the question that haunts her, and she’s about to find out.

When beautiful, haunted Akiva fixes fiery eyes on her in an alley in Marrakesh, the result is blood and starlight, secrets unveiled, and a star-crossed love whose roots drink deep of a violent past. But will Karou live to regret learning the truth about herself?

Daughter of Smoke and Bone had been on my tbr for years, and I’m not even sure why. I think because it’s a fantasy and it was really popular at the time, but I didn’t even know what it was about when I went in. I’m really grateful that iBooks offered it for free (for a limited time I think? I don’t know if it’s still up for free) because I’m saving money and I would’ve been bummed if I had wasted money on this. That sounds really harsh, I know, but this is the third book in a row that I read (while I’m writing this) that disappointed me (thankfully one of the other two was free as well) so I’m just glad it only wasted my time and not my money as well.

Daughter of Smoke and Bone started out strong and interesting. As someone who loves art, I always have a soft spot for characters who do as well, and are artists on top of that. So Karou being an artist and going to art school? Yes please. Having a great, supportive, fun friend in Zuzanna? Hell yeah. Then it turns out that the sketches in her sketch book aren’t just figments of her imagination, but real. Karou being raised by a family of ‘monsters’ was really interesting, especially when she goes around the world on errands for the father figure in her life, Brimstone. I also liked the worldbuilding: it was cool to see a fantasy story set in Prague, and the descriptions were vivid and it was easy to picture it all. 

We don’t know much about Karou’s past (nor does she) or the monsters that raised her, which really intrigued me. But then Akiva, an angel and Karou’s love interest, showed up and it already gave me a bad feeling. His POV wasn’t that interesting (throughout the entire book whenever it was his POV I just internally sighed ‘not him again’) and it gave me the feeling the book would soon focus on romance. A lot. 

And it did. Karou and Akiva’s first meeting doesn’t go so well. They’re enemies, so Akiva tries to kill her. Except he doesn’t. Why? I dunno, ’cause neither does he. Some kind of connection?? A ‘pull’?? It’s very vague. I love the enemies to lover trope, but I would’ve prefered if Karou and Akiva got to see each other’s side of the conflict that seperates them, understand that it’s not black and white, start to trust each other, bond, become friends and then fall in love. But deciding not to kill someone because of some kind of ‘pull’?? And then stalking her, watching her sleep? Might I direct you to Twilight, sir, I think you’d feel quite at home there.

Karou too immediately falls in love with him and I just

And why? I don’t know!! Oh wait I do, but it’s a spoiler so spoiler in white:

Because they were lovers in Karou’s past live but even then it was insta-love asjfbhdf And Karou ‘fell in love’ before she had her memories back? 

The book shifted a lot from an interesting fantasy novel with a kick-ass protagonist, a great female friendship, a mystery, the threat of a war, a family of monsters to… a lacklustre romance that felt incredibly forced and just too dramatic for my taste. 

The beginning of this book was interesting and I really thought I’d end up loving this, or at least liking it. It had a lot of potential and it’s the reason why I ended up giving this 2 stars, even though by the end I absolutely loathed it. I was bored and just

This implies that I DNF’ed this book. I did not. Because apparently I’m a masochist

Have you read Daughter of Smoke and Bone? How did you feel about it? What was your latest disappointment? Let me know in the comments!